It’s that time of year again! School is starting. Everywhere I go I’m reminded of this. The signs at the store advertising the best school sales. The school buses driving by this morning. My teacher friends working frantically in their classrooms to prepare for the students.
I’m also constantly reminded that I’m not going back this year.
It’s been more difficult than I would have expected. I knew that I loved teaching, but who knew I loved it this much? I just looked at the clock: 8:36. School started six minutes ago. I can picture the students dressed in their new clothes lined up on the playground anxiously waiting. I know the teachers have big smiles on their faces while reassuring the students (and the parents). The perfectly arranged classrooms are about to be invaded and partially destroyed. But that’s what makes this job so much fun!
It’s hard not to feel left behind. While on maternity leave at the end of last year, it was not too difficult because I could still go in to visit the kids. The summer wasn’t too bad either because I was enjoying summer just like every other teacher. Now it’s hard, though. There are too many exciting events happening without me! To all of my teacher friends – Weren’t you all supposed to have babies and take several years off with me so that I didn’t miss anything? Better yet, why doesn’t Sunnyside Elementary just shut down until I choose to return?
As much as I struggle with my emotions today, I’m also constantly reminded of why I chose to stop teaching.
I take one look at that precious face and I don’t regret my decision in any way. I feel very fortunate to be given the opportunity to stay home, and I know I made the right choice for our family.
Will I miss wrangling and corralling 27 third graders? Oddly, yes. Will this school year be a little difficult for me? Maybe. However, I can’t imagine things being any different.
I wish nothing but the best to all of my teacher friends. I know I’ll see you quite often and will get my fix of school stories. Have a wonderful year filled with lots of fun and memories!
And, finally, as much as I miss being at Sunnyside right now, I know that I will feel no mixed emotions about my decision come the crazy and busy time of parent-teacher conferences. 🙂 Best of luck!